Infertility is brutal. ..when you wonder if you will ever be a mom.

This could be a whole blog with many many many posts.

Infertility.

ugh.

seriously, what a slog THAT was.

If you are going through it right now, please accept my deeply compassionate virtual hug. It absolutely gutted me.

For over a decade, I tried EVERYTHING.

I will say that I turned my life upside down in this pursuit. I started eating and sleeping like a celebrity...meditating, dry brushing, yoga-ing, the whole nine. There were many turning points, but one comes to mind.

The story of the apostles throwing their nets all dang day and coming up empty never really got my attention until I heard it from a new perspective. The miracle of the withholding.

When I started to look at my nets coming up empty as God's hand in my life instead of looking at it as negligent on His part, I saw it differently. Just like the apostles' empty nets set the stage for the miracle to follow, I started to assume that mine did too.

Like I said, my sweet daughter is here now...in fact she is 16 next week. God is so good. It took a long time and there were many painful childless chapters, holidays, hay rides, etc...but in God's time, my life unfolded.

I will post some practical things that I believe got me ready physically to maintain a pregnancy (read here about giving up sugar) but my first post on this subject has to be one of thanks.

4 doctors said forget it...it is a lost cause. BUT, dear reader, doctors don't make babies. God makes babies. Never lose hope.